Moments in Time…

 

Life can be a long road to walk, sometimes you do things wrong, and you carry the guilt of not being there for someone, or your children.

This makes the path hard going, guilt weighs you down, and the longer you carry it, the heavier it gets.

But actually should you be punished for life for something you did wrong? Should you carry the blame forever?

My oldest daughter is pregnant with her second child, she moody and was always since she was a child.

Last week she asked me to go with her to Champaign with her, but I had already told my Sons girlfriend I would watch her son, while she went to the doctor, and she is also pregnant with twins, my daughter started to cry, I asked her what was wrong and she said nothing.

Feeling bad that I couldn’t go I called her uncle to see if he would go with her. Actually I was trying to help, he said he would, I asked my son to text his sister and tell her to call her uncle, and she sent me a text, telling me she was over it, telling her brother her business.

There is a long story that goes with this broken relationship.  She clearly doesn’t like her brothers girlfriend, and they have argued before many times.

My daughter sends me another text, telling me that I won’t have time for her after the twins are born, My son and his girlfriend live with me, and I do watch their son, and she also wanted to remind me that I  had three children.

Yes, I went into text rant mode, and really I am not sorry for anything I wrote to her, I have gotten to the point in my life, I am tired of playing game.  So tired of people fighting, and clearly there is only one of me, and I would have been happy to take the baby with us to her doctor appointment, but she wasn’t having any part of that.

Matter of fact she lived here with me, and she married and moved out, she could have stayed but she couldn’t get along with me then.  She had all the answers and still thinks she does.

But really I want to see my Grand-daughter that she is having, but I have a funny feeling she doesn’t want me to see it, Her closing statement I need to take care of my family, and I don’t want to talk…

I typed really? This isn’t the first time she has thrown one of these fits, or been mad at me…

And that time she didn’t talk to me for 6 months but actually it is fine, if this is what she wants so be it.