Moments in Time…

4-24-15

Went to visit a old childhood friend today. As all of us we have been through our own battles.  He may be a little worse.  I listened to him as he dealt it out to me from early childhood to now.

When we were children we did live completely different lives.  But he talked about bulling at school, and how it took a toll on his life. And how much more horrible it was on him because he was a male. And the things he did to overcome this by turning to body building to become tougher, and able to stand up for himself.

Actually learned all the girls he had a crush on including me. And the girls he slept with.  And some stories that took me off guard.

As I listened to him talk it seem to make him feel better to have someone listen to him, he is lonely and has friends, but no one comes to visit him.  So I really don’t have friends as well, so the visit was actually good for the both of us.

There was one person that didn’t want us to get together, my sons crazy ass girlfriend the one that is pregnant with twins. Basically because he drinks, and I have been sober for 4 years now.  It is weird how she can’t trust me to stay away from any type of Alcohol people don’t give me credit and think they can reign over my life.She truly pisses me off. She is such a busy body and

As I was leaving his house it was a strange feeling that came over me, he really wanted me to stay, but actually I couldn’t change my plans. He really wanted me to stay…I promised I would be back to visit him.

Really I am not up for a relationship of any kind, my life is wrapped up around my children and grand-children, but I really don’t see any harm of visiting him once in a while and talking and enjoying each others company.

He is a man and strangely attractive in his own way, and I am not telling you that I wouldn’t have sex with him,but it would be out of need, not out love or lust.